No Outlets

Internally…broken

Hopeless. 

Thinking about everything and nothing at the same time 

But I keep a straight face..

So no one notices. 

How could you? 

I don’t release

I don’t reach out to..let you know what I need

So I don’t know peace..

I don’t trust..

I don’t trust anyone to understand

That sometimes my thoughts 

Are in a tight bind to

These emotions that, control my mind

And I can’t…

think clearly.

I don’t have the words to describe..

So I…

I internalize my feelings

So no one can hear me

I try to let life be the lesson that

Teaches me to make better decisions

And I’m stuck between figuring it out

And hoping someone would listen…

It’s been years and I haven’t figured it out yet..

I’m just a man…who wants to be understood

But I’m disconnected….

With no outlet.